hellu. this video, was a video made by my dearest syahirah. It was her gift to all the sec 4 cadets. On that day, many cried. I was one of them. Watching this video, evokes back those emotions, every single time. It sad to see us be apart and go on with our life. We've bonded and been through ups and downs in life together as a batch. The 8th batch. Our batch was unique and ridiculous. It was the best out of the best. We were wild and unique. We were different and thats what makes us the awesome 8th batch. In this video, you can see the changes in me and my friends. Well, i definitely look better now than i ever did. HAHAHHAHAHAHA. All those pictures has its own event, its own memories and whenever i need reminded or just need to think about my npcc life, i can easily watch this to remember it all. Thanks to my squadmates that i've change and became strong to overcome those obstacles. Yes, i was a pain in the ass but you guys still accepted me back which i am seriously touched and grateful for. One of you said this to me a day before i came back to NPCC after my 3 months suspension "No matter what, you're still part of us. You are still our squadmate. In everything we do, we remember you. Its never the same when one of us is away. Remember, All For One,And One For All? We're a batch, we're the 8th batch. We'll accept you back with open arms cause you're still and forever be our squadmate. You're part of the family." I swar,this i what she said to me and i am grateful. Thank you.

LOL MY EX AND ONE OF MY BEST FRIEND IN WHITE, AND MY EX-CRUSH IN YELLOW.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA NPCC SEC 1 ORIENTATION CAMP :>
OUR VERY LAST CAMP.





MY SQUADMATE AND MY BESTFRIEND BESIDE ME AND MY FAVOURITE JUNIOR QIAN KUN IN GREEN :>

ps it was late at night and we wre having our night walk and also, i just came back from my NPAP training xo

this picture. am i being friendzoned? well, time will. forever, i'm always being friendzoned. is this how my love life will be till i meet the right one? lol what am i not pretty enough? am i too obvious? is it my personality? is because how i am with guys? why. but i won't give up. i'll endure those heartbreaks and cherish those wonderful days till i meet the correct guy. they told me to never give. they told me to be myself. i know i'm not perfect but i'm happy being myself. i'm happy and thats what is important. but apparently, my happiness is always never right for some people. they just need to ruin my happiness. life, is always filled with pain. sigh life. cheers to my love life.

Hello, i'm still here. dead bored. the mommies gossip, dudes being ther usual self. Sigh.

Hi zul.  How r u? I miss you. Eheheheh i love you my dear best friend :)

You should be kissed, every day, every hour, every minute." - The Lucky One

"Calling someone fat doesn't make you any skinnier. Calling someone stupid doesn't make you any smarter." - Mean Girls

"My Mama always said you've got to put the past behind you before you can move on." - Forrest Gump

Hello lovely people.
I am here, at Outram Park with my mummy, brother and my brother's friends with their parent. Sigh. I am the only daughter here and i am sad and bored someone pls entertain me. Oh and i'm changing my number yay hahahahahaha ok lol bye

Austin: Sam! Okay, I know you think that I'm just some... Sam: Coward? Phony? Austin: Okay, just listen. Sam: No, you listen. You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were. I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along. And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. Look, I didn't come here to yell at you, okay? I came to tell you that I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was, but I'm not anymore. And the thing is, I really don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself. And I know that things are gonna be okay. But even though I have no family, and no job, and no money for college... it's you that I feel sorry for. David: Heads up! Yo, five minutes. Austin: I'm coming! Sam: I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
[walks away] Austin: SAM!
[punches locker]

Sam's Dad: Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game.

Sam: Sometimes, fantasies are better than reality. 

Austin: I can be surrounded by a sea of people and still feel all alone... Then I think of you. 

suddenly, i feel like spamming my blog with movie quotes!!!!!

To: Siti Julaiha Binte Mohd Johan
From: Siti Julaiha Binte Mohd Johan

Dear Ju,

How are you? I hope you are fine. Wait no, don't pretend to be fine. Stop putting that fake smile and that cheerful attitude of yours. Its been a hard year for you. No cancel that. Ever since you entered your secondary life, it has always been hard. Going through those obstacles in life and standing strong. Yes, you've done shits and unforgivable actions in the past but be glad, that you've become a better person that what you were in your younger days. I'm writing this to you because you're turning 17 in 4 weeks time. I guess, its time for you to step out of your comfort zone and live life fully. Stop pretending, take your life in your own hands. Its your life, you control it, no one else. Yes, there will be much harder obstacles in life but whats life without those obstacles? God is fair. Every time you lose something, you'll gain something better and with those little things you have right now, you'll just have to make do and appreciate it. Think about those who is living in a much difficult situation than you. Be thankful.

Over the past 3 months, you've lost the ones you thought were your love ones like nur rahwani, fatin, nelly and ifah. ok wait, its them. it has always been them. But i guess, due to the situation(?) it made you guys that way? You guys have parted ways and you lost them. Well, i know it hurt. You cried. Whenever you think about it, you still do cry But be thankful. Cause you've lost them and gained 2 new better friends, Syuhaidah and Haryati and without them, you wouldn't have studied so hard and meet new people. Due to them, you've changed or in away improved. Ok, not being one-sided but due to those people that entered your life since sec 3, you've been changing, slowly, step by step. Be happy of your change. I bet your mother is extremely happy about your change.

You've gained haters like Raiyini, Sarah, Diyanah, Azzyati but you don't think badly about them. Thats the good thing. Be happy about it. If you were still the old self,you've already been cursing and being a totally minahrep rage mood or something like that. I'm proud of how you dealt with it. :)

I heard that you're going to take a big change next year. I heard you're going to wear hijab next year. Full hijab with proper attire. I know it'll be hard for you. Especially with growing up surrounded by guys, you're more comfortable with them and don't mind skin-ship but when you start wearing hijab, you can't do it anymore. You have to gain respect and maintain your moral values and dignity/pride. I know you can do it. Slowly and Steadily. Another obstacle for you is losing those tight fitting outfits and revealing clothings. Don't worry, you'll know how to dress up well eventually and will look extremely pretty/gorgeous in hijab and your new outfit combinations :) well, there are a lot more of obstacles, but with God's guidance, you'll be able to overcome those obstacles. Inshaallah.

Good luck for your o level result. You know you've did your best and you've studied hard for it. Now, its all up to God. Pray hard. Pray for the best. Pray for your friends too. Choose the school that you want to go to with your courses. Don't be swayed by influences or other people's opinion cause it's you life, your future. You'll succeed with patience, good personalty, supports, positive mindset and religion. Don't forget to thank God for every single success in life. I believe in you and I know that you know, you'll succeed in life. Inshallah. Amin.

With much love,
Juju x

Dear Yazid,

I want to thank you for everything. For being my best friend, for being my listening ear, for being there for me whenever i'm facing difficulties in life. Thank you. Without you, i won't have anyone to listen to me bullshit and sputter nonsense hahahah :) thank you. i can't say thank you enough cause i really do appreciate those things you've done for me. Oh and lets not forget, for protecting me from getting hurt. If i'm not wrong, you're the first guy who've heard me cry on the phone and whats worst that its not once, its a few times //gasps//

heh, thank you abuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu yazid! your kindness, i don't know how to repay it. Thank you for not judging me and accepting me for who i am. thanks, yazid :')

Love, Ju.

i'm going to post some letters here yay

Hello.

So time check, its 11.38pm. Sleepy? No. Hungry. No, starving actually. SO, i've been busy with my life for the past few days and i'm happy. but soeone just had to ruin those moments.

Been going to the beach with my family and relatives a lot and it would obviously be a blast and since i have sweet blood, i received many mosquito bites on both my arms and legs and on my neck too sighpiepoo

Friday, 28.12.12 was one of the enjoyable day ever.
I went out with my best friends, Haryati and Syuhaidah to Jurong Bird Park and honestly it was a blast till Jun Wei and Raiyini started disturbing us about it jeez ok lol  about it is the class bbq outing. tbh, we did want to go and we were limited on cash. we were told to pay 5 to 6 dollars each so we had that amount left when suddenly JW said we had to pay $10 and why? he said no more change thats why we have to pay $10. so we decided to skip it and we ignored their calls and all their bullshit and went on with our outing but seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy, seriously, it was bloody damn annoying. Whats wrong if we back out last minute? we still will pay you back geez hold on to your hair woman. i was really annoyed but haryati was asking me to just switch off y phone and ignore them and of course, being me, i didn't ignore them and replied them actually but in the end i got scolded like wth whats your problem zzzzz and i heard they bitched about me on twitter and i was like wth why sia you wanna scold me for backing out last minute? why you never scold haryati as well? i mean we were all together and we voted to not go last minute and suddenly it seems like i'm the bad one when i just went along? jeez. ergh whatever screw you guys

anyway, i had a major argument with my brother and i had a major mental breakdown of it. and being the best friend he is,Yazid called me and i expressed my feelings/ concerns/emotions to him and he listened to me and only made necessary comments when needed which i really appreciate.We otp for 3 hrs, 17 minutes, 55 seconds hahahahhahahahahaha we hung up the phone around 4.30am? and i went to bed after tweeting.

It cool that Zul, my bestest guy best friend is actually talking to me right now cause apparently, we lost contact for a few weeks and it was actually awkward for me when we started whatsapping each other but eventually, we became our usual selves :)

So i heard, on the 10.01.13, it'll be the released of O level results //gasps
howhowhow omg everyone is telling me to calm my titties down (ok lol they didn't really say that but whatevr) they say i'll do well and get a good result since i've studied hard. well, i guess so :>
oh and if it really is on the 10, its on the same day as my dad's birthday ehhhhhhhh xD

ok lol bye till i post again x

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so hi. I ditched my previous post and idky. hahahahha, but overall, prom was boring. well, excet for the dancing part. gah, like my first ever "clubbing" event dude. hahahah :> so holidays...... so far not bad. quit my job cause i was lazy cause i'm always on fullshift. why did me and haryat decide to be a temporary fulltimers sigh haryati also menyesal hahahhahha! :p

So my love life is non existant. had a crush on danial roslan but we didn't work out. been talking to elfi and he is cute ok lol he has always been cute if i hdn't seen tarm, i'll definitely have a crush on either firdaus or elfi. probably i'm having a slight crush on elfi? Ok lol whatevr.

wan confessed that he once had a crush on me and coincidentally, it was on 21/12/12, 00:00 :o ikr hahahhahaha! tbh, i've once had a crush on him but i moved on :> but his sudden confession, sort of evoked that feelings back sigh :< hehehehehehhe.

For the next 2 weeks, i'll be packed with outings and it sucks.

Been making plans with yazid to go gym together but i always last minute couldn't make it sigh i'm sorry :(

WELL ELFI IS DEFINITELY CUTE AND DANIAL IS ADORABLE JUST LIKE FIRDAUS AND WAN IS JUST MYSTERIOUS.

till i blog again xoxo

Name: Siti Julaiha.
Known: Juju.
Age: 16 years old
Birth: when the sun goes down on 24.01.96
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