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Monday, April 1, 2013
even strangers are capable of cheering me up
what about you
where did you go
oh wait
of course
to your best friends
most probably
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
fuck i am like a joke sia
i need zul right now
i want to talk to him
i want him right now
i need him
i want to cry it out to him
i just need to
i miss him
words spilled @ 11:12 PM /
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»force
am i forcing you
am i
cause if you don't wanna go
its ok yaknow
i'll get over it
i might even not feel anything
tell me if you don't wanna go
cause i don't want to force you
its either
i'll go with one of the guys
or just go alone
i don't even mind
....
i guess i don't
but its okay
i will get over it
get over it all
words spilled @ 11:08 PM /
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»fucking bloody hell
fuck you
know that day
when you're just so fucking annoyed
and that person you expected to
cheer you up
just don't
omfg
yes today is the day
every single thing,
every single time
i feel like cry
i'm like extra sensitive today
omfg
i hate pms
fucking bloody hell
so yes
i can't
i repeat
I FUCKING CAN'T
take it anymore
i am so fucking jealous
i can't
i feel so unimportant
i feel so useless
i feel so worthless
i feel like shit
i feel so fucked up
i feel so screwed
now fucking burn in hell
i am so jealous of it all i just so am
i need musa
i need the guys
i need them
i want to cry so badly right now
but i'm controlling it right now
i feel so hurt
i feel so jealous
i don't think i can ever be compared to his best friends
never will
never can
honestly
the level of importance that i feel right now
is like, 0
as compared to his est friends
why oh gos why
why do you need girl best friends when you have a girlfriend
fuck logic
yes fucking fuck logic
i give up
i give up trying
i give up in caring
i'm just gonna let it all be
i'm gonna let things flow
let it be however it wants or plans to be like
i'm just gonna be there,
looking, feeling
hurting, crying
why am i like this
oh god why
why am i so weak
why can't i speak up
why am i so broken hearted
why can't someone sing me a love sick melody
and tell me how fucked i am right now
how much i suck and
how much i deserve to be alone
forever alone
what am i supposed to do
when its his happiness
well
i'm just gonna watch
or maybe not
i unfollowed him on twitter
cause i can't see
i can't bear to see it all
i just fucking can't
and thats why,
i've stopped stalking him
i don't bother
cause if i go,
i'll end up hurt
so might as well don't
i'm taking caution steps with
my heart
the dam has broken
i'm crying my eyes out now
screw my love life
i give up on trying
i'm done.
so fucking done.
i'm gonna let it be
i'm going to
not feel anything
no emotions or
any of those
i'm going to ignore my feelings
just shut it out
i'm going to pretend to be happy
i'm just going to pretend to be that happy girl
oh wait
haven't i been pretending all along?
words spilled @ 10:48 PM /
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